Hello my beautiful friends, in my last blog post I gave you a little hands-up that I would be taking a break for quite some time, but no one expected me to leave for so long – neither did I! The past year has been such a rollercoaster for me and one of the most challenging journeys of my life. A few times I started writing a new blog post – in fact, I wrote this one at the 7-month mark but never posted it.
This blog has always been my creative output and the space for positivity and mindfulness, but I had no idea what to write or how to inspire, while my own mind was devastated. I didn´t want to increase my sadness by sharing it, so I paused. I waited and waited. I waited for the moment when the time would heal and fix all the damage that has been caused. I waited for the moment when I would feel like myself again. But the reality is, time doesn´t heal everything. Sometimes you must bury a dream and say goodbye to a loved one. Some times pass by and just because you wish they would be longer, you can´t pause or replay them. I´m sure all of you have experienced a similar feeling in the past. You´ve also wished and lost. I guess in the same way as I have changed in the past year, this blog might too. I´m not sure what kind of posts I want to write next, but as I´m typing these words I can feel such a relief of writing something. I can´t predict where life will bring me next, but I want to start sharing my journey again.
So, where did I move to?
I´m still an expat and some of you guessed correctly that I´ve been moving to the Netherlands. The beautiful city of Amsterdam has been my home for almost a year now. Moving to Amsterdam has been very different from my previous overseas experiences. Even though the country is in a lot of ways very similar to my home country Germany, I found it more challenging to settle in than it was in Chile, France or Australia. Even after almost a year, I´m still trying to find my place.
German vs. English
Maybe some of you have recognized that I changed some parts of the blog to german. For a long while, I was considering changing the website completely to my native language. I´m a german author and it would make a lot of sense if my website would be in german as well, right?
Well even though that might be the smart way to do it, I recognized that something in me just got blocked. I didn´t feel as creative or free to write in german, so right now I decided to switch everything back 😉
This is my blog, so I can do whatever I want to! This blog has always been something I did for fun, to share my travel journeys and overseas experiences with someone – not a website I only fill for marketing purposes to attract more readers. Being a full-time writer I think it is actually very healthy for the mindset to have something just for fun. Well but for the very few german readers I have, I want to announce one thing:
Two years ago I started my own book editing company The Author Edit, which edits German and English books and gives writing coaching to authors. So while this website will stay in English from now onwards my german readers can find some german content on the new website of The Author Edit. It would make me very happy if you would check it out here.
So this has been my little update for today, I really hope my next post won´t take this long again 😉 Thanks so so much to all of you that still commented and wrote to me in the last year! I actually got four messages today from some of you, who wrote that they hope I´m okay and come back. I really appreciate it, you have no idea how much! Yesterday has been my birthday and I turned 33 – a lucky number in Germany – so maybe this really is the perfect moment to start all over again and make this new year of life a happy one!
What have you been up to in the last year? I will answer all your comments in the upcoming days and hope together we can make this the creative and happy place again, that we all loved so much.
Lots of love,